It’s okay to be off-beat, flaky or unusual. No one ever
told me that it was okay, so I thought I would pass on the information!
If you read my About Me
then you realize that I am, myself, somewhat of an off-beat personality, or
so I once was told. Really, I wasn't always who I am today. Excepting a nine-year remission period, I
have been living with a chronic condition that causes depression, chronic fatigue,
and pain. Add to that a divorce after 28
years of marriage (add one nervous breakdown), and you come up with a potion
for a major personality change.
Deep anger and a root of bitterness took hold of me for a
while. Not so much from the loss of a relationship, or the grief, or the feelings
of despair and fear; those, are topics for another day...but, anger, because I
realized that I was a changed person. I
thought, what right does one person have
to create such damage in me!
You might say, well,
you let it happen to yourself; you are in control of you. That’s
true too, and a good thought; but, when I was hit with circumstances out of the
blue, I didn't have time to prepare. I lost my equilibrium. I sank and I sank
fast...and it was bad. It was dark. I couldn't breathe...eat...sleep...or cry for help. I nearly didn't make it out alive.
How did I get through it? One hour at a time; then, one day at a time.
When I could not reach up out of the black, God reached down with His hand. He
met me where I was.
No one wants to hear the old cliche but it does take time
to heal; and we have to be patient with ourselves and also allow God to work in
our lives. Change will come too. No, I am not the person I used to be; but, I
am a stronger person now. I don’t waste
my time thinking and doing what doesn't matter a hill of beans! Oh, I’m
different, but I like who I am, and I like that I know what the important
things are in life. God gave me a life and He gave me a life to live to the
full...and I plan to continue to do that very thing!
Comment and post a dream today...share a positive
thought...give a testimony of praise.
Share a little God-light through yourself with a friend who needs a hand
up.
Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things; and give me
life in your ways. Psalms 119:37 (ESV)
Thanks for stopping by!
Raven
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